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I'm tired of headaches plagueing my existance. I thought that taking the meds would make things a little easier, make my impulses slower in thought process, make everything seem just a little easier. But... ya know what.. not so much. I think it's time to stop taking them again and deal with who I am. Yup.. sounds like a plan.

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I haven't really UPDATED for other people to see since Christmas and this I know.. soooo.. let's run an update. I'm back at RIC and feel as though I'm wasting money and time. If it weren't for some really great people I'd probably just go home to be honest. Not saying my parents would let me do that because "I'm supposed to go to college" but I'm just saying I have a full time job at a theatre I love back home... sooooo why am I here to kiss ass to two white men that I won't ever have to deal with again? *shrug* Biding my time I suppose.

I've applied to Temple University and Madey, the thought of us being in the same city... overwhelmingly amazing hehe. Their theatre department looks beautiful and I feel like I'll just have to prove myself there, not kiss ass. And in any terms HELLO studying abroad in Dublin and London I think is a no brainer. I need a bigger campus I need to not run into the EXACT same people every hour of everyday. I need a change, I need something.. better. If by some reason I don't get into Temple University, I'll be taking a semester off and going to HCC for the semester and working. And I know I've said for years I'll never go to HCC but honestly it looks a lot better than anything else does right now. Uh so yes that's school for you.

What else... uh.... My brother in law and sister are still living at home with Rowenna my beautiful niece. I feel like I'm missing out on all of that home life. My entire family at home and I'm not. I should understand missing that, but I don't.. some days I just want to go home.

Oh and for a couple of you who know me well... I relapsed on drugs.. I'm doing much better now but the beginning of the semester was not a pleasant one. I'm working through it which is much more important I suppose. Life is slow and I'm simply bidding my time until May 10th when I have my last final and I can go back to where I know how to deal with my problems. And then I feel like my life will be back to the normalcy I need. My counseler, my groups, my friends, my car, my streets, and my territory with the reminders of why I need to live life in a straighter path. I've strayed from my path that I fought so hard to be on. And now.. I'm bidding my time until I can get back there.

So yeah.. I think that covers all of it. and woo for an update. It was brought to my attention. *wink*

-Sarah
Current Location: Dorm Hell
Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: "Cannonball" - Damien Rice
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From:midnight_truths
Date:March 28th, 2007 09:00 pm (UTC)
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No matter how long we go without talking you still don't believe me, you are something special silly! haha I hope you are right about admissions and I'll be there the lady is there so I'll find a way no matter what.
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From:vampfaery
Date:March 29th, 2007 12:06 am (UTC)
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I'm glad to hear you're doing better. But we all love you and wait patiently for their Sarah to come back. I miss you and hope you can stay straight until you get back.
Love you!
From:just_sullen
Date:March 29th, 2007 03:57 am (UTC)
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You may not be able to change where you are right now, or what is here and what is not... the only thing you can change is your reaction. (There's a little bit of IOP wisdom for you... although no matter how true those trusty proverbs may be, it's easier to recite them than to live them.)
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